Lukas Rosov, 39, of South Portland says that the Cumberland County Adult Drug Treatment Court saved his life.
“I had a long criminal record with drug-related charges, selling, consuming and getting caught with drugs,” says Rosov, who was addicted to cocaine and heroin. “I had a lot of wreckage, financially and in terms of my family and the rest of my life.”
Caught selling drugs in Southern Maine, Rosov was put on probation and—not ready to give up the drugs—went on the run. When law enforcement eventually tracked Rosov down in Massachusetts, his probation officer drove there to pick him up, and Rosov spent weeks detoxing in Cumberland County Jail. And then, just when Rosov was on the verge of sobriety, he succumbed to temptation when—while in jail—he was able to get some heroin.
“I was shocked at the weakness of my will,” he says. “I’ve only been on four drug runs in my life, but they all last years and they end with me burning my life to the ground, with legal consequences.”
It wasn’t until he was about 40 days sober that he was able to sleep more than an hour at a time and stopped fantasizing about escaping and getting drugs. And then he was ready for the opportunity offered to him—drug court, an intensified probation program.
The 18-month program has five phases, and as the participant moves through the phrases, the requirements loosen. The first phase includes random urine testing about three times a week, a weekly meeting with a probation officer and a requirement to attend recovery meetings and other positive social sober events.
“As important as the steps and the meetings were, finding other men I could connect with and get vulnerable with because we were desperate,” Rosov says. “There were a number of people who I connected with early on in my recovery who experienced reality in a way in which I longed to experience reality. They were satisfied with their lives and took joy in the people they were around and in themselves.
I’m four years into it now, and I do experience reality the way I want to.
Life as a sober man is comparably more fulfilling.”
Recovery meetings and check-ins remain a big part of his life, as are yoga, prayer and meditation.
“My life is full, rich, and meaningful, and I love the people who are in it,” Rosov says. “People call me because they want my help with something or know I have an ear to listen. I love to show up for people and to feel useful.”
Giving back has included talking with new drug court participants, sharing advice and encouragement.
“Be open and stay with the discomfort, because growth is always painful,” Rosov tells them. “Get a little uncomfortable. Get a little embarrassed. When you’re new to recovery, take the suggestions. If you feel like you don’t connect with someone’s story, keep on showing up until you do.”
Information on the Cumberland County Adult Treatment Court is available at http://www.cumberlandcounty.org/629/Adult-Drug-Treatment-Court